“What is the road to Real Happiness? The road of complete surrender to God”
Last weekend was one of the turning points in my life.
The thing is, I never thought that being a Christian, or someone who follows Jesus would ever have a ‘Hard’ life.. Yeah, pretty naive huh?
I tell my self, “yes, it’ll be ‘hard’ at times but most of the time is gonna be great! His ‘blessings’ will surpass the challenges I’ll ever encounter”..
BUT I had a very, very misguided view of what being “blessed” means! To me, it meant:
1) To make it in this world! Success at work, impressing of others and a very comfortable lifestyle
2) Financially SECURE (a very healthy bank balance)
3) NO MAJOR TROUBLES (conflicts with others, challenging circumstances)
4) NO MAJOR SUFFERINGS (including sickness, disasters, unforeseen life occurrences)
Which image of God Have I always envisioned or preferred? The One who demands my total allegiance to Him or the One who would not mind if I’m half-hearted towards Him?
Which God did I wanted to love? The One who gives me things all the time or the One who challenges me to step out of my comfort zone??
What does it mean to Love God??
Do I truly TREASURE HIM Above all things- even more than Jase, my parents, work, achievements, possessions…?!? Do I live to PLEASE God or do I strive to please and IMPRESS other people more??
I realized that I STILL loved other things MORE than God. Double loves, double hearted… That was why on Sunday during the service (and my pastor wasn’t even talking about this) – I realized that I have sinned greatly in my attitudes and the way I have been living my life. I asked God to forgive me and said- “God, I NEED You to Kill me“.
I thank God that He brought me to the end of myself. It is not a loss to give my life away, I know that this life is not my own!
*Yeah, nerve-wrecking, I know* but despite that, I KNOW with all my heart that His ways, thoughts and plans are greater than our own! We may be unintentionally holding on to things that leads to a world of pain and heartache – when instead, we could have let go and surrendered every detail of our lives to HIM!
To be His Disciple means…
1) TO LIVE FOR HIM.
TO LOVE HIM ‘THAT MUCH’ THAT compared to the supreme value I place of Him, everything else in this world is meaningless.
If I can use an example for this- it would be that the LOVE I have towards those closest and dearest to me such as Jase and my parents, would appear like ‘hate’ (sorry if this sounds harsh!) compared to the love I have for God.
The love I have for the experiences in this world, the security of a lofty amount of savings… The comfortable life here in Sydney… would I be willing to LET GO and Surrender it to God? If HE asks us to let go of these things would I do it?!?
“Jesus replied, “and I assure you that everyone who has given up house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or property, for my sake and for the Good News,
will receive now in return a hundred times as many houses, brothers, sisters, mothers, children, and property–along with persecution. And in the world to come that person will have eternal life” (Mark 10:29-30)
And again-
“And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or lands, for my name’s sake, will receive a hundredfold and will inherit eternal life” (Matthew 19:29)
This means, absolutely putting Him AS THE ONLY ONE I STRIVE TO PLEASE, the only one in my priority- and to obey Him daily.
Why? Because He is Worth it. Because He is my Creator, King, Lover of my soul, Redeemer, Deliverer, Savior, Best Friend.. Because He is my LORD.
Because I would never be in existence if it wasn’t for Him.
EVEN if our family and friends don’t understand the choices Jase and I make, or we experience ‘persecution’.. We must still stand firm in following and obeying Him wholeheartedly.
2) To be His Disciple, means to FOLLOW HIM.
This means-
My life is not my own. It belongs to God. My wants, desires, ambitions and cravings has to be given back to Him.
“Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me.
If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it” (Matthew 16:25)
This is what it means to “deny” ourselves. It is to ‘die’ to my wants and living life my way.. Instead to let God live in and through me.
This also doesn’t mean I just ‘die’ to self once and that’s it- I struggle with a lot of internal things and so I need to die to my self, daily:
“Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross DAILY and follow me”. (Luke 9:23)
Wow! Yeah, I know, hard to swallow right?
You know why I think it is SO DIFFICULT to let go? We live in this world! Our world esteems Status, Prestige, Wealth, Accomplishments… We live in it, our family and friends VALUE these things… That’s why it’s SO HARD!!
Jesus Himself said:
“You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way”. (Matthew 7:13)
Following the values of this world is going through ‘wide gate’.. But Jesus Asks Us to enter by the narrow gate.
Jesus was quite bold wasn’t He? No wonder many of the disciples did leave him.. His message was hard to hear and follow!!
Jesus also asks of His disciples to not only forsake their riches, the values they place on earthly riches but to Give to the poor- There is also another characteristic of His disciples- they care for the poor and injustice! I won’t go into this now…
However, I’d like to share a verse that has been speaking to me:
“As for the rich in this present age, charge them not to be haughty, nor to set their hopes on the uncertainty of riches, but on God, who richly provides us with everything to enjoy.
They are to do good, to be rich in good works, to be generous and ready to share, thus storing up treasure for themselves as a good foundation for the future, so that they may take hold of that which is truly life” (1 Timothy 6-17-19)
I think what God is saying here for me personally and for those who want to follow Him wholeheartedly – not to put our efforts striving to be rich… not to put trust and security in how much we have in the bank.. or the values of this world. It is all meaningless in the end- we came into this world with nothing and we leave with what? Our homes? Cars? Or branded clothes?
How many lives have we helped on earth? How many souls have we brought closer to Him?
What we do while living on earth determines how we spend eternity.
So on Sunday, was turning point #3 (I wrote about turning point #1&2 in previous post “What made me choose Jesus?”)
And I asked God to Kill me.. Not because of what anyone had asked me to do but it was something He had worked in my heart. I’ll never forget that moment!
I needed to die to my plans and ambitions. I was holding on to my life dearly.
Amazing Grace, How Sweet the Sound. That saved a wretch like Me, I once was lost, but now I’m found… Was blind but now I see!
My chains are gone.. I’ve been set free
My God and Savior has RANSOMED me.. And like a Flood, His mercy rains.. Unending Love, Amazing Grace
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