I haven’t blogged for a bit because I needed to pause and surrender my motivations for blogging 🙂
Things have also been a little busy as I am adjusting to a new routine with my new job. However, I wanted to share a little testimony about the new job I got as a piano teacher at Shine Music School. Currently working 4 days (Mon, Tues, Wed and Fri) and 1 day for my own private students. My routine is slightly different now, but I still have ample time for quiet time and Bible Study as well as house work in the mornings and if Jase is working from home, quality time with him during the day.
A while back, I shared how there was a season of waiting on God’s direction for this season. My husband has released me from helping him in the business, and for a time I was just wondering what am I supposed to do now? There are more than enough hours to kill even after all the housework and time with God!! (I mean that in the most respectful way).
My mind was constantly buzzing with ideas of what I could do – I love being productive, and it was like I was suffocating not doing anything..! But, it was Wait that I had to do.
Waiting on God. Savoring His Words, Reading, Praying and Journaling.
God Had His Own Agenda.
I had planned to promote my services to the community. I kept praying about that, and always, the words that were given to me was “WAIT. Don’t promote yourself. I (God) will bring the students to you”. I wondered at the time, How? How would God bring students in if I don’t do anything? Maybe it’s not the time?
I wondered at the time: How would God bring students in if I don’t do anything? Maybe it’s not the time?
I prayed and surrendered that EVEN if I was doing absolutely NOTHING other than being a wife and taking care of the house, it is ABSOLUTELY OK.
I remember that day clearly, it was a Friday. There’s a job advertisement website in Australia called seek.com. I’ve never used it in the past, as I was always self-employed, and the only time I wasn’t self-employed was when I worked in real estate, and that was because I knew the people working there.
So, I just typed in “music teacher” and this role came up. I applied, not really expecting much. Got called in for an interview on Monday, a second interview on Thursday and letter of offer that night. Crazy fast!
Prior to coming to the first interview, I was SHAKING!
I absolutely had enough of doing things on my own accord, and said to God: “Lord, I’m sorry if I was impulsive in applying for this job on seek.com (I was scared if this was not His Will), Lord, do YOU want me to be here? Please make it Clear and obvious, otherwise, I don’t want to be here”.
Jase (my husband) supported me and that was important because I really needed to know that he was ok with me working again. It was about 6 months after I stopped helping him in the business. I had a bit of guilt and yeah, sense of failure for not being able to help him. I suppose when you’re one, when one hurts, the other hurts too. However the guilt was just overwhelming. So Jase reassured me constantly (I need to hear things repetitively, otherwise, It does not ‘sink’ in). Jase is doing well, yes, I still think he needs someone to help him as he’s more of a big-picture kind of person and the details sometimes are lost on him (well sometimes what I think are important, he doesn’t and vice versa)
Prior to coming in to the first interview, I did get a number of verses but It wasn’t a clincher enough for me to really have the confidence that It was OK by God..
The clincher verse was received after the interview.I came home, and just started praying and reading the Word seeking His directions. I had no idea actually how I went on the interview. However, I got this verse from Proverbs..
As workers who tend a fig tree are allowed to eat the fruit, so workers who protect their employer’s interests will be rewarded. (Proverbs 27:18)
This verse was significant because a month prior, I was listening to a podcast on the will of God, and the passage expounded also had “fig tree” mentioned –
Then Jesus told this parable: “A man had a fig tree that was planted in his vineyard. He went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any. So he said to the keeper of the vineyard, ‘Look, for the past three yearsI have come to search for fruit on this fig tree and haven’t found any. Therefore cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?’ ‘Sir,’ the man replied, ‘leave it alone again this year, until I dig around it and fertilize it. If it bears fruit next year, fine. But if not, you can cut it down. (Luke 13: 6-9)
The following things were significant:
- The Last 3 Years…
I was working as a registered Music Therapist with the elderly. While it was financially rewarding, I was essentially working full time hours. It was full on and I was needing a break. After 5 years of Music Therapy, I decided to try Real Estate.
Wow. Most Intense Period of my work life. Never did anything so difficult and challenging and stressful!! To all real estate agents who have made it, HATS off to you! However, I realised recently that there was a purpose for me being in real estate for that period! So it was not all in vain. Other than personal growth, there are things that are happening and if I wasn’t at that real estate office at that time, these things would not have occurred today.
Helped Jase with the business.
For spouses who would like to work together, you have to be TOUGH SKINNED. Then again my sensitive-ness is probably more than the usual person’s so..
The last 3 years, have been VERY tumultuous. Often I felt like smacking my self in the head for the many times I’ve stuffed up!!
2. “Fig Tree”
Truth be told, I never thought of working at a music school, but when that verse from Proverbs came up, the “Fig Tree” is the school, my students, the role I’m in.. and to protect the interest of my employer.. it was the clincher verse that it was OK by God.
The Luke passage had the Keeper of the Vineyard requesting the owner to let him “dig around the tree and fertilize it”. This is an act of “tending” / “taking care” of something.I felt the Lord was personally saying “go ahead and take care of this”.
I realise that I need to see growth and find meaning in what I do. It was SUCH A RELIEF when I realised that I actually really enjoy teaching piano and that it fits. It’s not emotionally draining and although I’m heavily invested in my students, I’ve learnt to be careful and not be TOO emotionally involved to prevent any future burn outs.. I’m learning to also be honest and say what I need to say to my boss, to prevent misunderstandings and any chances of things going sour. I thank God that the school has a healthy working environment. I’m also learning to not worry so much over parents’ expectations..!
It is one on one teaching setting, which is good, because sometimes when you’re doing group work, it can be pretty intense. There is variety yet within routine and structure still! I love that there are different levels and challenges for each student to grow in and so it is not boring at all.. Lastly, I love seeing students improve and their smiles! Or when they find something challenging, but then they get a “lightbulb moment” and they can now do whatever it was that is challenging.. I love seeing growth and improvement even with the most cheekiest, and motivating the students to practice!
God Is TRUE to His Word!
I want to testify how when He said to my heart:
WAIT! Don’t do anything yet!
WAIT, don’t promote yourself. I will bring the students to you.. and He did!
God brought the students in through the school. They were never chosen or selected by me.. I have 27-30 regular students each week from the school. My youngest is 4.5, to working adults. I have a few students doing exams this November who are keeping me on my toes!! However, I love them still. 🙂 Time goes really fast, and I look forward to coming in to work. I thank God for this and it is all to HIS Glory ALONE. He’s teaching me to serve for the audience of One too!
God knows. Even if I had my own ideas.. He TRULY KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR US.
If God has asked you to wait.. try and be patient.. I know being patient is freaking difficult. However, Seek His Face above all else and He will Certainly DIRECT your ways.
Keep on Reading the Word, Praying, Journaling and Worshipping Him!